2 January 1987
05:40 calm, cloudy, 32° F
Dear Phillip,
Repeatedly I am reading your letters.
The last one, where you describe your impression of the wind and clouds is so well expressed, so full of life, that I can identify feelings of similar kind, an insight and presentiment of strongly being moved by the deepest recesses of our feeling, knowing and wanting to act, all at the same time. It shows your favorable disposition to be an artist in that you drew some patterns in your letter. Oh! If people only would know how important, decidedly and singularly it (is) to be a preposition to be active. [the dope, the inhibitive poison generated by watching routinely T.V. or listening routinely to a person talking or looking, thinking, doing anything routinely without the active innermost elicitation and awareness of the full participation of our being (thought, feeling, action) plus (notion, sensing vaguely, still other involvements and implications and to be in movement physically). Various thinkers express this state
The "artistic" action is a sane happening (actually: a must, an absolute must to progress from passive to active).
comparison = [the bankers
the military
the industrialists] are active
[the "workers"
the "teachers"
the "farmers"
the "artists" (the many with the preference of "making" art which of course is not art) the million fakes] passive
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Let us remind one another to the fact, that no one on earth is singularly active. In the same sense of grasping the core of this concern = no one is singularly passive.
Let us be observant and see: when a person becomes to any extent passive, the person feels "imbalanced". Initially it is this fact, that the person feels. Should the feeling be "lost", the imbalance will increase until we recognize "sickness".
(my explanation
excursion - may be too fast)
In some way I see you do know ( in your action, your life, your drawings, your paintings) the degree of certainty is somewhat different since our educational (system), without knowing, destroys the potential for the individual ever to make for themselves a whole world again.
That makes these people "dependent" = i.e. passive.
[in that same sense = the football hero on the field is passive! -though he is running successfully a touchdown yet this is a mechanical toy that is running. The human being, the Mr. Hero football player is passive in that he is imbalanced and has no means to restore balance; someone would have to help him there -of course no one does- surely not the coach, "teacher" who made him dependent in "helping" him to "act" so well.
The writing so far, is a sequence of excerpts, short blurbs of a vast store, a writer will sort this - having time.
I have very little time at this moment for writing. If I do not cut wood and carry it out of the woods I will freeze. Since there is no money for oil, coal, gas or "electric heat". If I do not move now and put up the 2 x 4 as liners and the sheet rock as covers I will live on a concrete floor and fiberglass open walls - contamination of lungs and inner organs.
If I do not move now … I remain out of balance.
Therefore, Phillip, forgive me for the shortness of this letter, the inadequacy of response to your most important events. I love you, I trust you are being /as there is so much evidence/ active.
to be active: means too = to balance feelings and thought.
to be thinking: means also = to balance action and feeling.
to be feeling: means too = to balance thought and action.
The funniest thing = when we are imbalanced we become aware!
When we are balanced (painting) 2 or 5 hours "go so fast" we are unaware of the time that passes.
Back to the 2 x 4's! With love, Wolfram
